I must apologize for posting episode 4 so late. I was having technical issues. To be honest I was the technical issue. But I sucked it up and pushed through the wall to post my latest podcast.
But on the flip side, I was on such a roll when I did get to finishing episode 4 that I started to work on episode 5 for the 15th. I actually finished it a few minutes ago and uploaded it to the net. I have it automatically schedule to post on the 15th which is awesome.
So that frees me up until June 1st to post the next episode. But I may record a special episode before then just to keep fresh on my podcasting.
I have had some major problems mentally over the past few weeks and months. I had fallen off my meds, I am back on them again, and that affected my mental state quite a bit. I did not consciously choose to stop taking my medications. What happen is I missed a day. Then one day became two. Then a week. Then a month goes by and all my medications are out of my system.
So now I have the arduous task of getting back on my meds. I am enduring the side effects that come with getting back on them. Most are rather unpleasant and require me to have quick access to a bathroom. Other side effects are loss of appetite, nausea, jitteriness, restlessness.
As my levels build up in my bloodstream I am coming out of my funk, so to speak, and begin the long job of cleaning up my disaster of an apartment. It looks like the aftermath of a frat party. But I am chipping away at it.
I also have to get back to writing. I have a novel that I finished last winter that needs revision and editing. It’s hardly as fun as writing the book, but it has to be done if I ever want to publish my novel before the end of summer.
Once again, I am trying to quit smoking. I am back on my bupropion (Wellbutrin) which helps greatly with the withdraws. I just have to deal with the nervous habit of smoking and find something else to occupy myself. I really want to beat cigarettes this time and not fall back into smoking. It has gotten to the point that I can barely stand smoking a whole cigarette. I need to keep reminding myself every time I want a smoke how much I actually don’t like it. I don’t like the taste, I don’t like the nicotine rush, I do like being able to breath.
I want to thank all of you who listen to my podcast and read my blog. Write me with your questions about D&D, indie writing or living with mental illness. There is a link on the page to email me.